Its going to be my 2nd post.I ws not sure i could write so soon.

  Well , i must say m kinda confused nw.I confess m failed to the aspirations of my parents.But soon i can prove myself.I need the much needed desparation n aggression to do smthing
                 But wats the goal of my life?Its definitely not in the choosen field.A goal must give u the peace of mind.In the process i've to listen my heart.Thts wat i want.Wen ever we do smthing we r judged  n asked to be obliged.But this obligation stops us frm hearing the cry of  our soul.I really hate this word .Relationships dont get stronger  by obligations n compromises.These two things make bond manipulative n lifeless.Every couple says its  the compromise thats most needed in a relationship.So how does this help???U r in a bond bcoz of love,bcoz u feel u share the same soul.If smone compromises , thts become conditional.U change urself expecting the other to do the same next time.Ok this time i keep ur word n the nxt time u must oblige!!!This is how we  boast that we r in a strong bond.If m right thts  hypocrisy.U knw wat u feel but declare everybody that u r happy.U r not the same person ne more .Well it depends on individual perception,the feeling that give him solace,the amount of truelove one need may deviate.But it really need lots of courage to lie that ur happy.M the one who needs lotzzzz of love. Thats wat i believe.Wen i loved it ws unconditional.I never felt m compromising.If nething changed that due to of its own accord.M not idealizing my love.But its wat i felt.Its ws a long distance realationship. Still i must confess the journey couldn't last.Still m vry much in love with my Angel.I believe true love returns.m not regretting wat i did bcoz of her only i learned to love uncondtionally .I evolved as a person,as a friend n as a lover. Every person I love will thr be forever in my life.But m upset with her.Bcoz she still hv a part of my  soul  n without it i m feeling lost.m still unable to cope  but i must move to build myself.Hope her love wl grow in my heart. Smtimes i felt its merely a illusion.But its the illusion that transforms into reality,provided we really want it that way.So it depends , hw much perfection we want in the illusion,portray urself in it n make it real.After all we all hv our own world